Saturday, August 1, 2009

avatar made me stupidly inspired part 2

AND here it is!!! although i can't really tell if it works because i don't seem to be able to click on it... hopefully you're having more success. P.S. if you have no idea what i'm talking about, then that makes two of us... just kidding! for real, if you have no idea what i'm talking about or what this video is, please go read the previous post. and if this video isn't working i'm really sorry. it's kind of out of my hands.

avatar made me stupidly inspired

a couple days ago i was watching the trailer for the new avatar movie, and it made me remember just how much i had loved the show. this began a chain of events that eventually led to disaster/complete disappointment. here's how the story goes:

after watching that trailer, i was so excited that i decided to watch some of the old avatar episodes. while i was watching these episodes in grainy quality on my laptop, i began to get that feeling. you know, that crazy, wistful feeling. i was so inspired that i decided to do something new and completely different. so stupid, stupid me decided to create an amv / avatar tribute. i knew it wouldn't become very popular and all, because avatar's over and people don't really care about it that much anymore, but i was for some reason that i can't even explain to myself, really committed to this video. i spent a lot of time over it, and all the while i was praying to god that it didn't turn out to be complete crap...

all i really wanted to do was help my fellow avatar-watchers remember just how much we had all loved avatar about a year ago, and how inspiring the characters were to us. i just couldn't stop thinking about the fact that the characters in avatar did all the incredible things they did for others. from the ones they loved and cared about, these characters gained the strength to do what's right. they fought, and sacrificed, and endured so much pain all in the name of love and friendship. to them, these things were everything... and now im preaching and i bet it's really annoying to you, so i'll stop. (no worries)

i decided to make my avatar tribute go with the song everything, by lifehouse. it's my absolute favorite song and i've probably listened to it a hundred million times but im still not sick of it. (ROS alert! good thing my crazy nit-picky english teacher isn't here. she'd probably fail me for this single run on sentence *rolls eyes*. god, that woman is a complete witch when she wants to be.) anyway, the lyrics to the song for some reason always put me in that wistful-ish, almost-about-to-cry-for-absolutely-no-reason mood, so i thought it'd be a good match.

here are the LYRICS:

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need
You're everything, everything.
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

so back to my story... yeah so i finished the video after about a day of fierce clip-picking and video-editing and other random STUFF that i didn't really expect to take as long as it did. then i decided to post it onto youtube. BIG MISTAKE. that was the beginning of the end... the beginning of disappointment and disaster and just feeling like a big stupid idiot. i went onto youtube and clicked upload new video, selected my video and it began uploading. and since my laptop is a piece of junk that works at a snail-like pace and freezes every five seconds, it took about an hour to upload. and then youtube told me the video had to process... ugh. at this point i wanted to rip my hair out because this whole video was becoming so flipping annoying.

finally, after about a day and a half, i checked my video on youtube. it was finally processed!!! yesssss, i thought to myself. i excitedly clicked on it and held my breath. after a moment, a red sign flashed over the top of the page saying that there had been a copyright claim by some strange company that began with a v. i stared at it. and stared at it some more. and stared some more... and then almost broke down sobbing. wtf? i did all that work and wasted a day of my summer and got so excited for absolutely nothing? no one is ever going to see my video???? i mean, i never expected a whole bunch of people to see it but at least a few... was it really that much to ask?

so now i'm over the whole thing. i mean, the video was never that great to begin with and i thought it over and realize that i'm still glad i did it. first, it wasn't like i had anything else planned on that particular day. if i hadn't done the video, i would've just, i don't know, watched tv or maybe gone to the gym? or just slept the day away and caused my mom to yell at me in that cranky voice of hers...? second, i got experience editing a video! it wasn't a complete waste because now i know how to use windows movie maker and get clips to make a video like that. third, i was proud of myself. maybe i shouldn't be because now that i look back at it, the video isn't that good... but i was still proud. and it was a good feeling.

so all in all i'm glad i took the time to make the video. and after a while i realized that i could try posting it on a blog. probably only one or two people are going to stumble over it, but that's better than nothing. right?

so here it is. my avatar, the last airbender tribute/amv. i hope you don't think it's complete crap (meaning that it's totally ok with me if you think it's semi-crap):

did it work...? darn! i don't think it did. ugh, why do these things always happen to me? maybe it worked... i can't really tell b/c im kind of new to the whole blog thing. so sad. don't worry, i will try again!